I’ve neglected this blog for a while (to be honest I kind of forgot about it), but feel ready to start updating again. Right now I feel better than I have for a very long time, as I’ve finally been able to close two chapters of my life that caused immense stress for over a year: I graduated and got my MA in Journalism, and I quit an amazing but very exhausting job in the same field. (more…)
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Miserable moods
I wrote this a week ago and never got to publishing it. I feel a lot better now and it’s hard for me to believe that only a few days ago I felt utterly miserable, but still want to post it as a reminder of how easily my moods can swift.
Somehow during the past week I spiraled into a mood that I hadn’t experienced since I started taking lithium. It took a while before I was able to admit it, but despite the meds, I’m feeling pretty damned depressed.
In sickness and in health
My trip to Japan was amazing in many ways. I was thrilled to see my friend again, to visit one of my favourite countries again and stuff my stomach with the delicious food it has to offer. Also, after spending nearly a year working full-time, getting diagnosed with bipolar disorder AND trying to write an MA thesis somewhere in between all that, I really needed the time off work. And it was good. Whether it was my friend, the sushi, the karaoke or seeing Mount Fuji through the train window – within days something helped my mind to let go of all the worries and stress that had been there for months.
Time to travel
Tomorrow morning I’m flying off to Japan to visit a friend for two weeks. I have to say I travelled loads in 2014, but most of that was work-related or just too short to really be relaxing, so going away for this long feels like a treat. I know that travelling is a huge trigger for me, and I only just started taking lithium, so I’m a bit wary about it all. However, my friend knows all about my situation and I’m sure she’ll be able to help me if something goes wrong. (more…)
Who to come out to?
Next Monday I’ll have an intake meeting at the mental health organization where I’ll hopefully be treated from then on. After telling so many people (GPs, psychologists, psychiatrists, study counselors, university professors, family, friends) about my problems I’m getting better at knowing what to tell and how to do it. Quite frankly it feels like coming out of the closet all over again. Let’s just get that out of the way then; I’m not only bipolar but bisexual as well!
Bipolar Bear 