As of 1 January, 2015, I’m no longer a single woman. Once again, I have been tricked into the bizarre world of having a boyfriend. He’s amazingly caring and mentally stable, which is probably exactly what I need, but at the same time exactly what terrifies me most. (more…)
bipolar II disorder
Road to acceptance
I’m still on the waiting list for a general personality test and thus still waiting for an official diagnosis. The process of waiting is wearing me out, but my mood has been relatively stable for the past weeks. In this case, ‘relatively stable’ means my mood hasn’t been stable at all – as a matter of fact, I’m having mood swings on a weekly or even daily basis – but it hasn’t been extreme enough to drastically limit my functioning.
Because I’ve been waiting for months and will still have to wait for a month or two (at least), and because I kept begging my psychiatrist for short-term solutions to deal with my symptoms in the meantime, she sent me to a therapist who can meet me a little more often and finally give me some practical advice.
Hallucination: not as exciting as one may think
While still being stuck in the diagnostic procedure – they now told me they think it’s either Bipolar II Disorder or some sort of personality disorder, which means I might have chosen a fitting name for my blog after all – I’m getting to know myself better. For example, I recently found out I’ve quite likely hallucinated a couple of times.
Bipolar Bear 